Yeah. Im sorry if u were in a bad mood just now. D: I know u wont want us to cry/miss for you. But I just cant help it and the tears just roll down on its own. I wish, AHS was not a SAP sch. So I still can see you for 1 more year.. Yeah.. I was thinking, what could I call you instead of your name and my friend. And sadly, I realise that I cant call you anything else except those two. I dunno you well enough. I cant even be counted as a good friend.. And I know, you are feeling worse than us... yet... u still show that smile. That smile, brighten up my day. That smile, made me ask myself whether it was real or fake. That smile, made me think abt what can be done. That smile, that smile of yours, never failed to make my day.. And now, when I think abt what you've done. It hurts down deep. You hurt so down deep in there, and you never to fail to laugh each day. You tried to cheer us up. Even though you are feeling worse than us. I dunno how you manage to do it. but I hope, you will rly show ur true feelings... Dun bottle it down deep. It will hurt even more.. I dun want to see you hurt. It pains inside. I believe you know what I mean. And I hope you will confide in us so that we can confide in you too.. I was msg-ing Yi Xuan,Raelene and Ivy. And I told Yi Xuan this. "Im tired of giving those fake smiles..Now, I have stop trying to find the rewind button. Im trying to find the stop button." I know all the netballers that are close to you thinks so. But I know you hope that we will stop finding the rewind and stop button but u want us to continue playing. I know. Thats what you want us to do. But, will you even give us the chance to find some glitches so that it will stop sometimes. Im sorry.. I cried when msging Yi Xuan.. I was thinking, what if time could be controlled... will you let us stay as close like now.. Im sorry..