Sian... I dunno why i cant bloody pass the ball well like YC,Yuan Ru... Im a point guard just like them.. But why cant i bloody pass the ball well? U can say its stress.. But it wasn't like this 4 months ago. I mispass like dunno how many times. 3 or 4 times. And only made it up by stealing someone's ball once. I understand why coach sub me out. Is rly my fault yeah. I couldn't make it out whose my teamates when we can fastbreak and is 3 on 1. I did it two times. Im bloody disappointed. I dun think im fit to be in the team. These are simple turnovers that i should not even do. And Coach made me a point guard. I know being a point guard is very stressful. You are the playmaker. U decide whether we will win or not. And so far, i haven been a pointguard for most of the prac. I will feel even more stressful. And i dun even do that well in the other roles because i cant pass well. I dont feel the stress last time. But now i do. Can someone tell me what to do? Im rly feeling very stress. Competition coming soon. I was anticipitating the competition like a few weeks ago now. And now im feeling very stressful. Being a point guard is rly very stressful. U have to rmb all those plays. u cant mix them up in order not to confuse ur teamates. U are always getting scolded by the coach if u only notice 1 side and not the other side. In all, u get scolded by all the mistakes u did. I did fine for the drills. I could pass well. But it was until match. The tension. Im probably being a bench-warmer after todays incident. I will probably cause the team to lose by all the turnovers i make. I wonder why am i in the team. The other 3 players would probably fare better than i would in competitions. Is rly very stressful. I tried to make it up. But i cant. Watching their nice passes made me even more stressful. Maybe.. i should train myself to be a centre. Centre's job aint that stressful and hard yeah? I cant be wing. Its too stressful too. And no matter how many cuts i do,i dun get the ball. I din stop doing cuts cors i din get the ball. I believe i will get the ball. Well, I did. When i have to open the ball at the side. And even if i did, i think i will make another turnover. I dun wanna go trainings and scared of getting the ball during prac. Its rly too stressful.. I will give it some more trys. I just wanna say being a pointguard is rly very stressful. I wonder how they did it. They = Yu Cheng,Yuan Ru,Ting Yi, Hilda, Cheryl Boh. I guess i dun have so much experience to play ball. Maybe i shouldn't play at all. i should probably continue wushu. At least it doesn't feel so stressful. I can rmb those sets. I wasn't scared when i "performed" in front of the judges. I was feeling happy. And after i perform finish, i was proud of myself. I dun even care whether i win or not. I only felt winning is an extra bonus. Well, maybe i rly should continue wushu. And i rly wanna talk abt the second thing. Or maybe not. Okay. I wont. But to Chew Shian : Thanks for telling me that and thanks for trusting me. I promise u, i will try to change k? But i think that incident was an accident maybe. And i apologised to her already. So.. just thanks.
Training was a load of crap and shit to me as u can see. I will end here. Bye.